Today....

This is one day I wished never happened... But hey, life goes on and God has planned this... Without a doubt we still love each other but this life belongs to God not me... His will be done not mine... Today, she decided that it's time for her to move on... To be with the guy that God actually told her to be with... And I said go... Because it's God's plan... NO doubt it breaks my heart and also hers... But it's God... WE have to to obey because we love Him more than anything else... NO greater love has I thus found than God's love... Because God is love..


Today is the day she will close our love story's chapter in her life... Or maybe like she says... A merely pending story waiting for the author to finish it... As for now... I hope she puts less of me but more of him... Because only that way she will be able to be happy with him... I don't want her to look back... I don't want to be someone who would wreck her happiness... Yes... I know I am stupid and foolish, some of you might say... But no... Because this is how love should be... Because, love is not self-seeking... If this is indeed a test from God for us, I intend to pass it and so does she... He needs her and might have been praying more than me for her... I guess so... I don't know.. But i wish them a better life ahead... Persecutions await them.. Will be praying for them... Hope they can last through... And if God wants them to be, then I would have to let go... For now... I will wait...

So today... Means the beginning of my single life again... Today means I will dedicate my life to fully serve God only... I pray that I will not fall in love again... Because I know, I am selfish but I just want her to be my last.. Even if it means not being together... And I know many a time that guys would say his when this happens to them but I mean it when I say it... Wait till when? I don't now.. But if we are meant to be, somewhere down the road we will be... For now and forever, serve the Lord with all my mind, might and spirit... God help us through... That smile.. Will always be in heart forever...