For the past couple of weeks, I've been residing in my inner cocoon, trying to figure out things. My mind was in a constant state of flux; drifting into the nether regions of the brain, wrestling with thoughts and emptiness. Emptiness? Yes... It felt as though we are kept alive by merely the fact of existence rather than through living.
So what now? Are all days treated like any other day? Where a constant routine surrounds us in vicious cycle; a spirit of lethargy pressing down on even the most beautiful of days. So this is all there is? After all the years of growth and nurture, this is how one spend the rest of the days?
By slaving for and through a mass system designed to keep us at our knees begging for more pieces of printed paper to be stored inconspicuously in monetary institutions built on human insecurities?
I refuse. I refute. I rebuke.
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Monday, April 22, 2013
Wow
The only word that came to my mind was wow. Sitting here and reminiscing memories of the last three years can be summarised by three words; wow, wow and wow!
What the last three year presented was an opportunity to grow and to learn many things about my field and boy have I learned!
And last Saturday was the final year projects screening. It was glorious like what Ms Kang said. Our three years of endeavour and those were our products.
Wish I could have written longer but too tired for today. See you soon!
What the last three year presented was an opportunity to grow and to learn many things about my field and boy have I learned!
And last Saturday was the final year projects screening. It was glorious like what Ms Kang said. Our three years of endeavour and those were our products.
Wish I could have written longer but too tired for today. See you soon!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Sun
"Do you think it will ever rise again?" she asked while looking on to the horizon. It was an abyss of nothingness. It looked cramped with darkness. She trembled as though she heard a soft voice crying out in agony from beyond those light-absent lands.
"It will," he said reassuringly and sat beside her in the damp grass. She looked at him, confused for he would never have wanted to sit on damp grass or anything damp for that matter. He said it would wet his pants and make him look embarrassing, not that anyone would care. She turned her attention to the darkness again and hugged her feet, resting her chin on her knees. It was cold too. She bemoaned she'd forgotten where she kept her jacket.
"How can you be sure?" she asked lazily. They have had this conversation for a while now. And each time before she could have the answer, he would walk away or stay silent. Either of this is going to happen again, she reckoned.
"Hmmm," came the reply. She sat up and looked at him. Does he have an answer at last, she wondered. The sun hasn't been rising in a long time. People have grown so accustomed to the darkness that they hardly even get bothered now. But he was different. He retained hope.
"Do you still remember how the sun looks like?" he asked in uncannily fashion. She rolled her eyes. She was expecting an intellectual answer, not a question-answer. She shrugged and mumbled, "I don't remember."
He chuckled. She nudged him hard that he almost fell to the ground. It was effective in stopping his tease. They sat in silence again.
The frogs began to croak.
"They're singing for the rain now," he said. She nodded.
"I still remember how the sun feels like," he said. Her eyes opened and they were focused on him.
"I still remember how it looks like too," he said, softly, looking at her eyes and continued, "Will you smile for me?"
She let out a huge sigh and closed her eyes. Then a sudden warmth embraced her. She felt his heartbeat.
"My sun is right here," he said.
"It will," he said reassuringly and sat beside her in the damp grass. She looked at him, confused for he would never have wanted to sit on damp grass or anything damp for that matter. He said it would wet his pants and make him look embarrassing, not that anyone would care. She turned her attention to the darkness again and hugged her feet, resting her chin on her knees. It was cold too. She bemoaned she'd forgotten where she kept her jacket.
"How can you be sure?" she asked lazily. They have had this conversation for a while now. And each time before she could have the answer, he would walk away or stay silent. Either of this is going to happen again, she reckoned.
"Hmmm," came the reply. She sat up and looked at him. Does he have an answer at last, she wondered. The sun hasn't been rising in a long time. People have grown so accustomed to the darkness that they hardly even get bothered now. But he was different. He retained hope.
"Do you still remember how the sun looks like?" he asked in uncannily fashion. She rolled her eyes. She was expecting an intellectual answer, not a question-answer. She shrugged and mumbled, "I don't remember."
He chuckled. She nudged him hard that he almost fell to the ground. It was effective in stopping his tease. They sat in silence again.
The frogs began to croak.
"They're singing for the rain now," he said. She nodded.
"I still remember how the sun feels like," he said. Her eyes opened and they were focused on him.
"I still remember how it looks like too," he said, softly, looking at her eyes and continued, "Will you smile for me?"
She let out a huge sigh and closed her eyes. Then a sudden warmth embraced her. She felt his heartbeat.
"My sun is right here," he said.
Alas
"You can never understand my intentions, can you?" she asked with the most ferocious of eyes.
Despite the voice being weak, you could feel the flames of wrath in her eyes. They were in the balcony. Bob was lying down under the shade with his belly up. You'd have to pity creatures with fur such as his. If they were suffering from the sweltering heat, Bob would be dying.
But Elaina was not mad at Bob. The hangers of the swing creaked from years of rust. Elaina stood by, watching him swing back and forth. Her hands folded and she tried standing straight to show her stricture. But clearly, this hasn't done any good. Adam stared into nothingness.
Elaina was adamant but only for a moment. Slowly, her arms loosen and her spine relaxed. She let out a huge sigh. Bob turned around and looked up. As if sensing what Elaina was thinking, he walked over and sat near her. She sat down and brushed his fur softly and slowly. Bob licked her hand as she rubbed his chin as if trying to console her from her fatigue.
Adam stared no more into nothingness but Elaina and Bob. She looked up and stared into his eyes. She saw nothing.
"Are you going to apologize?" Elaina asked, only now with more pain than flame in her eyes and heart. Adam replied nothing.
She waved for him to come over. He was hesitant.
"Mama, I'm sorry," he said softly.
She smiled weakly. He got up and walked slowly towards her. A breeze came. Bob stood up and with all his might, tried to feel the breeze surfing through his fur. He let out a soft bark.
"Will he come back?" Adam asked.
The breeze glided their skins. Elaina's hair danced to the music of the wind. As the breeze whistled, Elaina held Adam tightly in her arms.
Despite the voice being weak, you could feel the flames of wrath in her eyes. They were in the balcony. Bob was lying down under the shade with his belly up. You'd have to pity creatures with fur such as his. If they were suffering from the sweltering heat, Bob would be dying.
But Elaina was not mad at Bob. The hangers of the swing creaked from years of rust. Elaina stood by, watching him swing back and forth. Her hands folded and she tried standing straight to show her stricture. But clearly, this hasn't done any good. Adam stared into nothingness.
Elaina was adamant but only for a moment. Slowly, her arms loosen and her spine relaxed. She let out a huge sigh. Bob turned around and looked up. As if sensing what Elaina was thinking, he walked over and sat near her. She sat down and brushed his fur softly and slowly. Bob licked her hand as she rubbed his chin as if trying to console her from her fatigue.
Adam stared no more into nothingness but Elaina and Bob. She looked up and stared into his eyes. She saw nothing.
"Are you going to apologize?" Elaina asked, only now with more pain than flame in her eyes and heart. Adam replied nothing.
She waved for him to come over. He was hesitant.
"Mama, I'm sorry," he said softly.
She smiled weakly. He got up and walked slowly towards her. A breeze came. Bob stood up and with all his might, tried to feel the breeze surfing through his fur. He let out a soft bark.
"Will he come back?" Adam asked.
The breeze glided their skins. Elaina's hair danced to the music of the wind. As the breeze whistled, Elaina held Adam tightly in her arms.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
An Extension of Will
When terrains were unfounded,
Boundaries not drawn,
Lands unclaimed,
Man seek for names to be bore.
Maps were invented,
Lines were marked,
Fields plowed and wars waged,
Flags erect, he declared for more.
When time was a nature unknown,
When day was just light,
And night was just darkness,
Man seek to have it keepeth.
Sun dials took the first bow,
Soon came towers with ticking hands and numbers,
In which activities are kept in sound of the bells,
By which we became gears of a universal clock.
As maps were drawn,
And clocks keepeth time,
Distance began to be a trouble in sight,
Man seek for relations away from his eyes.
Words sent in envelopes,
News conveyed with electrical signals,
A village he saw in awe,
A village without boundaries and freedom for all.
But man so yearns for dominion,
His spear reaches no end,
His strength bore from fear,
By and in which weapons came to the fore.
It is but a festival of powers,
As fires danced and burst in laughters,
Around the lands lay people wondering,
In death, in shame, man's folly and sin.
The shallows in inventions,
In which intent man saw an end of a moil,
Alas but strutting in bruised pride,
An extension of will, gained naught.
Boundaries not drawn,
Lands unclaimed,
Man seek for names to be bore.
Maps were invented,
Lines were marked,
Fields plowed and wars waged,
Flags erect, he declared for more.
When time was a nature unknown,
When day was just light,
And night was just darkness,
Man seek to have it keepeth.
Sun dials took the first bow,
Soon came towers with ticking hands and numbers,
In which activities are kept in sound of the bells,
By which we became gears of a universal clock.
As maps were drawn,
And clocks keepeth time,
Distance began to be a trouble in sight,
Man seek for relations away from his eyes.
Words sent in envelopes,
News conveyed with electrical signals,
A village he saw in awe,
A village without boundaries and freedom for all.
But man so yearns for dominion,
His spear reaches no end,
His strength bore from fear,
By and in which weapons came to the fore.
It is but a festival of powers,
As fires danced and burst in laughters,
Around the lands lay people wondering,
In death, in shame, man's folly and sin.
The shallows in inventions,
In which intent man saw an end of a moil,
Alas but strutting in bruised pride,
An extension of will, gained naught.
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