Sitting here, at Adrian's house, of all places, at 1.17am, cold and quiet, with "and I hate you so" playing through the speakers, I opened up my eyes and heart to read... Yup... It was my Serdang Pop Girl's blog... And boy oh boy, all kinds of lightning, waves, thunder, hammer, and all those things you only see it in television like laser beams, light saber, super plasma blasters, all came shooting and hitting me as every word go deep down here *points to the heart....
Well, I was prepared for a long post because you titled it "My love story with an Arsenal boy (yes is LONG but I DON'T CARE)"... And because I have read your long posts before... I know you really mean it when you say LONG... lol... XP ...
Reading that post made me realise that... you truly are a very special girl... Made me realise that yea... Arsenal boy, you'd better appreciate her or I'll beat you up... OK, it doesn't make sense if I beat myself up, but you get the idea... I cannot control my smile... It's just from one of the cheek to the other end of the other cheek... And guess what... My tears streamed down too...
Just the other day, you asked so passionately about football and Arsenal... And you even read the blog on Arsenal which I recommended.. You even got frustrated when you can't watch Arsenal on PPStream... You practically researched about Arsenal before I even told you wonderful stories about this great club... When others would look at me in this way : O.o or =.=''' whenever I get passionate about Arsenal... NO... Not you... You even know Vieira (a true Arsenal legend) before I told you who he is... You wanted to know so much about my life, my passion and... my heart... You walked so long and hard and waited agonizingly for sure to open this door... Surely, you did.. Opened up this chained door to my heart... You didn't need the key... Because you are the key...
Not many would do all this for his/her loved one... XD I am extremely grateful and happy... Because... You actually wanted to be a kaki bola... Not many girls are like that... Special... Just... special...
"At the end... This korean classic drama ( You mentioned it xD ) just happened.. During tuesday , I thought of just acting normal to you , and try to avoid from having eye contact with you... But you... never avoid nor afraid of me... yet still being close to me. LOL Funny thing was , we can still talk and talk and talk non stop as usual xD Then ... later on... you approved our relationship. I felt surprised , and shock... that you actually willing to accept me as your girl." she wrote...
Yea... It was korean classic drama... Girl A help guy court girl B who happen to be one of her best friends, guy fall for girl A realising that she was the one he wanted... You know... That kind of cheesy things you get in korean dramas... Happened to us both... LOL... Of course, together with herself (me included) and all our friends... we were indeed surprised but we got together... By the way not much of an approval... But an agreement... for this...
"We don't need any puppy love ,we want something different..something calm yet meaningful and decent.Together with a maturity mind about love,we make things easier.. and slowly... walked together... not thinking about just normal boyfriend and girlfriend.. but more about appreciating someone that we love , someone that catches your heart... No uncertain promises , no bluffing sweet talks...but just the real feelings...step by step we go through every moments we had. " she wrote..
Word by word, true to the heart... Pop girl just manages to say things that I intend to but just don't know how to say it... I say, she make a good secretary... LOL... Anyway, XP ... yea... like she said... Step by step... Slowly but surely... More and more everyday... IN love...
But truly... Sometimes Pop girl can be real silly... Look what she wrote~!
"That's the deepness that can't be seen through the surface. And I am sure both of us understand well that being in love is easy but to maintain a relationship is never the easiest.Not everyone tend to understand and realized about this ,but we did, for after what we had been through. As we both know clearly than anybody else does,that both of us appreciated each other so much,till we never wish to hurt each other.I do not dare to say forever... because I was not certain about our future... yet I can only promise you that I will stay beside you as long as I can , until.. it is time for you to leave... I'll let you go without any pain.Peacefully,and blesses you with my prayers and love ... till the end of my day. "
Ok... I was touched... I mean... I still am... And trust me, I can't stop reading this post... I need to get some sleep for presentation tomorrow... Erm... *ahem... Where was I?? Ahhh yes... I totally broke down when I read this...It's true that forever will hurt... It's true that the future is not certain... But I just want to say this...
"You don't have to let me go... Because I won't go..."
Why would I go when I found someone so special? As the tears streamed down... and as I prepare to venture into dreamland... I seal you in here and lock the door with you in the inside of my heart... Good night... ^^
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