Communication...

I think we have misunderstandings everywhere... And I am not sure apart from my family(couzies mostly), girlfriend and a few friends, who actually reads this blog... Lately, I feel strains everywhere... To be honest... To be entirely truthful, I am sick and tired of it...

I think we have communication problems... I think some of you do not like some things I did or maybe something that I did that I don't even know about... Or maybe you just don't like me...

I always maintain that my friends are incredibly important for me... Yes, being me, sometimes I feel I ignored some of you... I am sorry for that.... Truly I am... But these days... I feel a certain restrain from you all... I feel, we don't have that connection anymore... What happened? What did I do? Or perhaps... some of you don't like my girlfriend? Or my attitude? I don't understand the sudden boycott... Or am I just thinking too much?


And please don't deny that there's nothing wrong with us. There definitely is something wrong with us... The sudden aggression, the sudden everything... There must be a problem with me... I don't know what it is... but i can sense that your attitudes are changing... And it breaks my heart to think that you all have not been at all honest with me...


Friends, sometimes, we are the biggest hypocrites in the world... Maybe I did something that was against what we agreed on... I am sorry if I did... But for me to know that I have hurt my friends through other people's mouth, it hurts... real deep... I know you all care for me... I am thankful... I know that sometimes, words can hurt... But if you don't tell me those words yourselves, it hurts even more... For me to come to realisation of this sudden miscommunication we had... It took a long while... I was denying the very problem that was set before us... Now, I hope I still have time to save it back..