It's all about the passion

The most fascinating thing about these people is that the work is never ending. Yet they somehow find the strength and tenacity to just keep going and going. Something on the inside is very much on fire and that feeds the soul which strengthens the body and makes them keep going.

I'm already in a month and a half going into my internship. It's been an amazing experience so far. There were times when I feel utterly disappointed with myself and there are times when I feel utterly incompetent too. I don't like to lean on the excuse-side self. And I definitely don't think it's because I'm new.

Somehow, there is this clumsy, rash and no-sense (yes, no-sense not nonsense) ingrained in me which I don't like at all. I am trying to eradicate them to be a better person, overall.

The team has been great to me and it's hard to say that I will find this kind of people elsewhere. I would have been slaughtered on a few other occasions, had I been in another company or shooting with another team.

In about a week or two from now, I will be drafted into a movie shooting. It's gonna be different. It's gonna be tough and tiring. I've been warned.

Which is why the questions they ask is so important today.

Will I be able to say that "I love working in this field" for years to come?

You see, sometimes I feel useless too in a sense that I know something about all things but I don't know all things about something. It's a very worrying thing. In simple terms, it's jack of all trades and master of none.

I know something about photography.

I know something about cameras.

I know something about editing.

I know something about audio.

I know something about writing.

I know something about producing.

I know something about production managing.

I know something about everything. But I know nothing about something.

It's not a dilemma. It's something I feel that I've not worked well enough on.

So after almost three years into understanding this field, where do I truly stand?

I find myself asking this question again. As I only know something about these things, I don't truly excel in them and that saddens me.

But nevertheless, the same thing that drives them to keep going is the same thing that I must possess.

It's all about the passion.

And hard work.